i talked to christy for about four hours on the phone yesterday. she graduates from boston u in a matter of weeks and then she's moving back here.

i can't help but feel a lot of apprehension about it. i don't know exactly why. she's supposed to be my best friend. well, she is my best friend. it's just been a long time. and a lot of things have changed. fourteen years of friendship. the last four were spent apart.

i guess i jsut feel like i don't really relate lately. admittedly, my parents do alright, and i've got more than the average person, but i'm not spoiled. and she is. and sometimes it puts this wedge between us. she and her parents have such a strange codependent relationship. even though she's graduating and going into the "work world", we're still not on the same page. she just finished a massively expensive degree from a university that costs more than harvard, and yesterday, she tells me that she'd like to waitress.

she said she isn't going to get a real job. she just wants to get a job that will allow her to pay rent. i mean...wtf? she doesn't have any school loans or other debt to pay back, and she is free to just do whatever she wants. she's going on a road trip after college with sam. sam is the son of a very wealthy, very prominent lawyer. same situation.

most of her friends in boston were like that. rich, spoiled, and completely out of touch with reality. their parents run ad agencies, own pharmaceutical companies, and work in the television and film industries.

maybe it's just jealousy. wouldn't i love to have the freedom to take some menial job that doesn't even require my degree? wouldn't i love to have the freedom of not having debt? it isn't just jealousy though. it's her attitude. and the fact that it has caused a major communication rift between us. i can't relate. and neither can she.

 

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